Love. How would you describe love in a short sentence?
Love. (Mass noun) –
- A strong feeling of affection
- A strong feeling of affection and sexual attraction for someone.
Many people have, will and are experiencing such a feeling. Me? I still believe I haven’t. Well, at least not in the romantic sense.
I was invited to a birthday do up north a few weeks back. When trying to find a friend to crash at a hotel with, I realised many had already booked up with their partners in tow. I keep forgetting we are all getting older and many of the group have settled or are in the high throws of passion. However, I am working in the bar trade, drinking copouts amounts of wine and still non-attached. People constantly ask me why I am still single. Like being single is an illness I have chosen to indulge in.
Throughout my adult life, I have wasted time on relationships that I knew would never be. So why would I waste any more? I am sure many of you would agree as we have all been there, but I just feel that I personally, have been incredibly unlucky… or incredibly stupid.
What I have learnt from the last few years, is what love shouldnt be. Love is not fearing the actions of another towards you. Love is not waiting for acceptance of ones self from that person. Love is not giving all of your trust for that someone to then rip up the nice, soft carpet underneath your feet away from you.
In times, I was naive, very sad and broken… But I am not that person anymore. I have had these experiences and molded myself into the being I am today, and I am proud.
The most important lesson that I have learnt, was to enjoy my own presence. I like my free time and regularly set aside events for myself. Having lunch at that quirky, new resturaunt or sitting in a cafe drinking macchiatos and writing in my journal. I also do not crave the company of others just because I feel lonely.
You do not need someone to bring happiness into your life, they should develop alongside your own happiness.
So thank you, to everyone that has thought they could control, destroy or pander with my life. I’m here. Stronger than ever. One day I will understand love, but in the meantime I am happy, happy just being me.
Do you relate to any part of my story? I would love to hear yours! Get in touch. (-: